I am not someone who likes numbers, nor is interested in getting obsessed with them in this way. I have moved so far into food freedom, but this new diagnosis is challenging it again.

I feel stuck and like my brain is working to make my life unliveable. I am isolated- my body feels a cold sweat when the thoughts are so intense they feel like they might be the death of me.

Nicola Warner takes us through her life as a cellist with chronic fatigue syndrome

Musician and curator Jack Jones talks candidly about the emotional toll of rejection.

“…less and less is spoken about the mental agility required to be constantly rejected and still have belief in what you’re trying to cultivate.”

Your improvement can’t be linear, so neither should your intensity of practice be

Bassoon player Alison Wormell takes us on the road to discovering their musical dyslexia and the impact its discovery has had on their playing

Flute player Francesca Leo shares her journey with anxiety, leading to a recent diagnosis of generalised anxiety disorder

You aren’t alone even though it’s Christmas

Of course I am watching the Crown. I am also seven months in recovery myself from self-harm. The two are, of course, related to Princess Diana’s ongoing struggle with self-harm and her admission of it in the infamous 1995 BBC Panorama interview with Martin Bashir.

Discovering the music and work of violinist and activist Gaelynn Lea for UK Disability History Month

The first in a series of mini introductory blogs on notable disabled and/or chronically ill musicians for UK Disability History Month

Sofia Kolupov questions the archaic practices of the classical music industry as we look to define what being a musician actually is…

Criticising women for what they wear and how they look is not something I want to add to. This isn’t a question about whether it should be ok to dress how you like… it’s a question about why so many of those in the classical music media are both thin and white.

There was an additional aspect: I still wanted to be thin and delicate and airy and beautiful, and playing the harp fitted right in with that aesthetic.

I want to be more open to other viewpoints, ways of working and speeds of achievement. I don’t know everything and need others to help me see a broader perspective of the industry.

In this marathon, my cello has become my trusty pacemaker and I am so grateful to have it along for the journey.

Reflections on anorexia by Jack Campbell

Often when I speak to an audience, I like to leave them with the invitation to ‘choreograph’ their life, one intentional and courageous choice at a time.

Few performing arts have a connection with royalty as intense as the one portrayed by classical music. The forced-mourning has revealed in microcosm the difficulties of speaking out about injustice, as those without connection, photos and emotion are forced to stay silent.

The job that was meant to be for 2020 only to cover the gap but somehow has still been a necessity. This means I and many others are still questioning whether we are ‘true musicians’ and what the future holds for our profession.